Have you ever went out on a date and everything went absolutely great and awesome and there was no reason to be mad or anything and then you say one thing and then you fuck everything up where our date just wants to forget everything about today, and you wanted to be with then the whole date but what you said fucked up all of the plans you had said and instead of fixing things you’re stuck in bed feeling like a complete asshole dick because of some stupid thing you said and if you would have never said anything that you wouldn’t be sitting here looking at a computer screen for a reply because your dumb ass fell asleep,So instead of fixing things it just gets 8x worse and now that person won’t even talk to you. So now our just sitting here thinking about how you can’t say some things to certain people because the will take it wrong, but you just want to fix it. but instead you make things worse by trying to fix it, so you know that everything is our fault, you can’t blame anyone but your dumb ass self for ruining the whole fucking day you had planned out and took of our work shift for because you felt as if your relationship could use a bit more spontaneaity, but instead you just make it worse, quite the touch of “spontaneaity” you have there pal. Good luck on the next date if she even wants to give it a chance dickfart. You better hope she still accepts our dumbass.
It’s weird when you get past a certain period of time when you’re really all the way at the bottom and you feel like shit and depressed and just like shit in general and eventually you stop feeling like that I mean you’re not super happy nor numb you’re just at peace I guess but then you look back and it’s just like a big change and that’s just really weird man
Today at work was super harsh, my normal supervisor wasn’t there, so I had a different one and she didn’t like my method of closing. Anyways I just got home after getting off work at 2am then went and had brinner with some co-workers, they’re all in the 20’s like 21, 22, and they were talking about moving out, and that is a big step financially but I didn’t realize that when you leave the people that raised you behind and start your own life that, you in fact are sentimental to someone, and they can’t let you go, but if they respect your decision, they have to. It’s part of growing up. I’m not old or whatever I’m barely 18, but I realized I’m maturing a lot, a little at a time, I’m still a huge goofball but when it calls for it I’m mature, but my main though process of tonight was misjudging people, who give any person the right to judge you, and it is more worse to judge someone by taking it up the butt. Some people just can’t work and play. I missed my boo tonight :s I sacrifice late nights that I’d love to be spending with her, I’m taking her on a date tomorrow :3 super stoked, I wanna make her happy. She is number one gun, but I have to treat her more special because she is the one girl that matters, I feel like I’ve been fucking up lately, I know she misses me and I miss her, So I really hope tomorrow goes well, goodnight guys.
It seems like at this point everything is going smoothly for me, in the big roller coaster we all call “life” seriously like what the fuck can you do, you have no choice but to keep moving forward so why not make the best of it. It might not be the best it might not be the worst, but we all gotta do it. I’m just happy to be off work, goodnight guys.
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My life without you? I don't know, maybe I wouldn't be the person I am now. I would still be ignorant and think there was no one out there for me. Feel lonely and pathetic. Wouldn't believe in myself as much as I do now. I'd be completely lost. Many people out there left for the most stupid reasons but they are a few who didn't. What if they would of joined in with the others, how would your life without them be?
AnonymousProbably not as interesting and happy as it now, I have the right people narrowed down, the ones that matter alot are the closest ones I have, that give me advice always when I need it, So the condition I have my life in now would be great because I have all the people I need in my daily life, I really couldn’t go a day with out them.
It’s kind of weird that in one aspect my life is completely changing and I’m getting older but here I am the same fucking person I was a couple years ago with just a little less weed and a little more experience with situations and a little more understanding, but I’m losing my drive to keep certain people around or I just don’t have to touch I used to, to keep people around in my life. Or to keep other people happy besides myself, I know that I do my best with shit, but I fall short in certain categories and I totally accept that, there isn’t much I really can do, I won’t give up but it’s tempting, but I’m not gonna do it. I’m very oblivious to the little things but I focus on them. I’m a good guy but I’m not perfect, but I’m getting older and I know that shit is gonna start changing and I’m gonna have to change with it too or else I’m gonna get eaten alive, So this is kind of like a note, that even though I can be a self centered dick I care about the ones that actually mean something and have been there for a long time. I just wonder how I’m ever gonna pay them back.
